My next path

Well it has been a little while since my last post here but i have decided my next path I must take in life.  Not sure where but  plan on moving to NC once i find some work. I have already applied for one job there for AVG so I am waiting to hear back on that but even if I don't get it I still plan on moving there.  Like when I moved to FL I felt a pull here. Now that pull I think is pulling me there. And I need to go there to find out what it is. I am still not entirely sure what called me here though I have a thought on what it could have been. That was to help my last X-Gf get separated from her soon to be x-husband  and help her build up the divorce to end a marriage that was just not there and he just simply used her.  And she just wasn't happy . Now she is with a new guy and is pretty happy with him. I even meet the guy and think he is a pretty ok guy.. I think he will treat her right.

But yes I believe my next calling is in NC. I had planned on moving there at one point before FL but an opertunity and calling pulled me here first.  What will i find in  NC I do not know. But I need to find out. While yes I will miss the friends i have made here I am not tied down here like I wasn't back in CA where I grew up in.  So as soon as I can find a job and have enough money to move up there I will be movin again.  See a new part of the country and experience another area to live.  Gotta see other places while I still can.

Some thoughts to mull over.

Well i am here today to well put some of my thoughts into words. I Have been here in FL for awhile now. Moved here on march 15th 2011.  And while I have had allot of great times and made allot of great friends. I have had a feeling get worse and worse in me. That i cant really describe without going into more detail that i need to explain first. 

Well for those who don't know I am not a christian. Fact is I have a bit of a negative viewpoint on the religion more so for the Catholic  religion for various reasons i can explain to anyone who wants to talk about it with me.  I surfed to a few religions for a bit one of them even being a branch of Buidism .  But thanks to some friends i found not just one religion but two that I relate more to than any other. While I do not think of myself belonging to to any particular religion. I mainly call myself a  Shamanistic Wiccan. Meaning Identify with Wicca and Shamanism mainly. 

With most people they feel only a mental link to where they live. They like it or hate it only based on what they think. But with me it goes beyond that. It goes down to a spiritual or metaphysical level.  This is a tie to the land that you really cant describe unless you have a similar tie yourself.  But anyways since i moved from my old home in Paradise, CA i have been feeling more and more detached from  the land.   It has lead to me feeling how to day it a bit off? As time goes on it had only grown worse.  I came here to Florida  cause something was calling me here. 

I think what was calling me here was a job. A way to get on my own feet. While it was a very rough road and still a bit rough now and then i was able to do it.  I no longer feel a call here. By call i mean reason to be here. I can't really say somewhere else is calling me right now i just know it is no longer here.  I don't want to move back to CA but i do want to move. I need to move back to the type of environment i feel at home in. I need to move back to a nice Forrest in a small town near a big city if possible but not needed. I have never liked the city. Never have never will it just isn't for me.  

I wouldn't say i am depressed but i would certainly say i am in a sort of funk.  I just need to try to connect back to who i am. I need to find my next calling and follow it. But unlike last time i can not just jump into it like i did. This time will take allot more planning and effort to do. If anyone has any input on this or advice it would really mean allot. Just allot of things mulling around in my head.