Life's hardships/ Rant and a bit more.

   Anyways allot has been happening the past few months. I have had a fair enough number of interviews but still no job yet. I can honestly say i have never had this much bad luck finding work.  I would have ran out of money awhile ago if it wasn't for my tax return giving me allot. Also the fact that the deal with the person i moved up here with said $125 rent per month   after the trade deal i worked with him for my ps3 and all things that went with it for 2 months. Decided to change it to $325 but i told him no that it was not the deal and being the kind fair person i am offered 200 instead  and he said ok. But on top of that he mentioned nothing of paying part of the utilities  and asked that of me from month one. And because i thought while it was not part of the deal it was fair i paid it. This all how ever threw my planned budget out the window BIG TIME!! And it is because  of that what should have lasted me 6 months about has lasted me much less paying  about $150 more per month than I planned.  So as of right now i have $42 left with my bills totaling $108 not including rent or utilities bringing it to about $250 a month.


   Well on top of all that he came to me on the 15th  saying that him and his friend are moving next month and I need to try to find another place by the first. And because I never signed the lease I and a few others agree not sure i have any legal ground to do anything. Even if I did I am not the type of person to do that thing if at possible.  I have asked others around   if anyone knew of anyone with a room and nothing so far. I  DO NOT plan on returning to CA at all.  Though that is where  pretty much all my family is I just don't like the state is meant to be home for me.  So I am trying to  find what the hell I can up here. But one issue i have in even trying to sell some things is i need a Washington ID to sell things around here. I could  get some money selling some of the things i dont really need  that i have.  And with no work and so little money left i cant afford to spend the money on the ID.  So  kind of a catch 22 for me there.  Just not sure what to do right now. I have always managed to pull something out of my ass at the last moment so far i just hope i can do so again like i have in the past.


   If anyone knows anyone who can help please point them my way up here. Other than my father i have received no help. What actually pisses me off. I have bent over backwards for a few people a number of times. Even getting bit in the ass for doing it having  a former roommate threatening to  beat me up for kicking him out cause he did nothing but sit around eating my food not looking for work  despite letting him stay for free. And having to call the cops on another a few times. One who even owes me $2,000 but cant pay me back right now idk if he ever will but while i will never help him again unless he pays me back i still would help others if i was able. But with all that when I am in need of help I get shit on. Posting a request  in a local group if anyone had or knew of a place to stay and get berated for it saying i should keep that on my personal page on FB. And we all know how useless that main feed is half the time.  Something posted on there will be lost in a matter of seconds at times.  That aside not receiving much of any help other than 3 people saying they would ask around. THREE out of a hell of allot more than that local. I am not mad that people them selves cant help that i can understand. I am mad that people can't even seem to be bothered to ask around or even offer their sympathy .  A certain few even bashing me for asking for it.

Well that's pretty much it for the bad. Other than that i have gotten to ridding my bike allot more also on top of everything doing allot of photography in the process.  You can see them here https://www.facebook.com/pages/Duskwalkers-Photography/409611882550095 I have gotten allot of compliments on some of them.  A few serious photographers i have asked while they say i do have allot of improvement i need to make i do have promise.  So that still makes me feel good. Also the state it's self up here i love it is such a beautiful state. The energy in the environment is so amazing up here. I even manged to get some close up photos of a ground hog. I  have hiked high above the city and looked down upon it. I love it up here all bad things that have been happening up here. And am determined to stick up here no matter what.  While yes i did have allot of good times and experiences in Florida while i was there i hated the state. But here i love it.

Anyways i think i will leave it there on a positive note. If you want to talk to me about any of this please feel free to do so.